What Am I doing?.......

Wonder if anyone else ever asks themselves this question? If you say "no" you are either a liar or I am a NUT!!! I think everyone does at one stage or another. If not, well, I'm sure the men in white coats will find me eventually. I was just watching my 2 boys wrestle and throw any thing they could get their hands on at each other..Yes, I was watching not interfering...No one was crying yet and I was always told "no, stop that , don't do that" by my father and I refuse to do it constantly to my own. Any way, I was wondering ."What in the hell am I doing here, at home, washing, cleaning, cleaning up and looking after three kids?" how in the hell did it get to this?
Yes, I know how it happened but when you consider a 30yr old who had career, good $$$ and outside interests who considered a visit from her 10 and 8 year old nieces a perfect reason for birth control and WHY NOT to have children...Who now has three kids and is a SAHM..What happened in my mind to get me to this point?

I never was really attracted to kids and the idea of giving birth was more than I could bear (get it LOL) I think I was all "mothered" out in my late teens as I spent almost all my summer holidays at my cousins looking after her four boys (9,2x6 and a 3 yrs old) I liked them but they were little beasts, now over twenty years on they still talk of stealing my clothes whilst I was in the shower and putting them in the front yard. The smell of baby poo, baby chuck and all the sounds, smells and sights my new mums friends raved about was a loss to me..it was poo, chuck and such...Get over it, I thought.

I know I was on Canberra for work, commuting back and forth on weekends or flying hubby up when I thought ...Was this all I wanted to do all my life..I could not envisage myself doing the same thing in a decades time. We had been married six years by then, had paid a substantial chunk out of the house and had most of what we needed ...So I thought we might like to have a baby...We had spoke of this and it was a sort of "on the agenda but not ready type of thing" I don't think any one is ready for a baby or the idea of creating one.

Now as I remember the sights, sensations, smells, feelings, and everything else that goes with the pregnancy , birth and watching a baby grow and develop.. I think there could be nothing else in the world I could have wanted or needed more. It is an experience in itself and individual to each person.

Funny, how if a little person comes into your life; you tend to see the upheaval or the joy; bit like glass half empty or half full; I remember for the first time not giving a stuff about the washing, ironing or the state of the house (except the floors if baby was on them) I took on the mantra of "Don't sweat the small stuff, and it's all small stuff"

I still get uptight about mess and toys tipped out for no reason, but I like to think that what I'm doing is to help three kids grow and develop at their own individual rates and stages, to learn about things in their own time and way, the encourage a healthy love of learning, but most of all to just be there to wipe away the tears, kiss the sweaty foreheads, hug the fears away and to put my nose to their hair and try and remember the smell of innocence.

Blogsphere Questionnaire Extraodanaire

Ok, Mr Oz Ramblings has taken the challenge to be interviewed..He may regret it...LOL
1. If you could be any leader throughout history, who would you like to be and what ONE thing would you change about their leadership/reign?
2. What do you most dislike about yourself that is not physical or tangible and why? Would you change it?
3. Do you believe there is life after death and why?
4. What one book would you turn into an epic film (that has not been done already) and who would play the four main characters?
5. If you could be any thing or any one person in the world for one day and you had to cause major changes in the world during this transformation, what thing/person would you become and what would you change?
Enjoy!!!!!

Blog sphere questions....

Picked this up from The Inner Mind of Jamie (link from my site on side bar) it's fun and if you want to join in the rules are printed below.

1. If there was something you could change about yourself, what would it be? Why?My inability to accepted peoples lethargy about issues and wrongs to themselve and others
2. If you had just one dollar to your name, otherwise broke. Would you give it to a poor person on the street? Why or why not? Probably, I could get a job but if they are on the street they probably need it more than me (although in Melb begging is an art and a money maker)
3. What makes you who you are?Every one I have ever met and everything I have every done, although I think my mum accounts for about 80%of who I am
4. I love this question Spexial. If you had to pick one animal to represent you, which one and why?A cat, because they were once worshipped as demi gods and gods and I think they still think they are today..thats me. I think I'm better than I really am.
5. What is the worst thing you have done to someone? Lodged a undeclared income report with the Tax Office!!!!YES I AM A BITCH ON WHEELS!!!!!

If you want to be interviewed here's how it works.....-If you want to participate leave a comment below that says "interview me."-I will respond by asking you 5 questions, each person's will be different.-You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.-You will include this explanation and and an offer to interview others in the same post.-When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them 5 questions.

Things you find in a car......

Having three children all whom think it is lifethreatening not to take a toy, book whatever in the car for EVERY trip ANYWHERE...You can imagine the SHIT that piles up in the car, especially as kids seem unable to carry stuff back into the house on the return..."tooo hebby" (too heavy)

So once a fortnight (or week depending on how much SHIT is on the floor) I take a rubbish bag to the car and clean up. The last few weeks have been an education as to what my kids are actually doing in the car, Dad seems to be part of this equation as his SHIT is in the car too.

Week 1#: 2 apple cores, 2 empty juice bottles, assortment of fries from Mickey D's, 3 soxs...none matching, a hankerchief, screwed up tissues, 5 Matchbox cars, 3 books (Dr Seuss, Arnold and Thomas The Tank Engine) 2 paperbacks books (Enid Blyton and Gretal Killien) used travel cards, old copies of MX ,number indeterminable (free city newspaper) old copies of financial review. NOTE: This includes cleaning out the boot of the car also
TWO WEEKS LATER......
Week2# mandarins peel, old Salada biscuits, soxs again..none matching the previous three, old copies of Business Weekly, old airline tickets (Dad had been away for work)chocolate wrappers, lollipop wrappers and sticks, pair of sandals (what the...It's winter here!!!)pencils, pens, old kinder art work and the missing Tamagotchi of 2 weeks ago (down beside from passenger seat)
ONE WEEK LATER>>>>
Week 3# Now it gets nasty as it's one week since I cleaned out the car and washed and vacuumed it....
a VERY old half eaten apple, a banana peel, old Salada biscuits, empty water bottle(empty because its leaked on the floor)half a eaten burger(brand indistinguishable) half full flavoured milk bottle (YEEEECH)empty Coke bottle, and a lump of what I think was once cheese.

Now does this stuff mutiple or are there gremlins in the car bringing this mouldy, crappy SHIT into my car over night?? How can I have an apple that looks like its been there since Ned Kelly was a boy if I cleaned out the whole car a week earlier??? Is it the germs already there mutiplying and manifesting into these forms?

Any ideas?
What SHIT is in your car?

Naughty,naughty Mr Vizard

Why is it that some animals are more equal than others???I never really understood that under that same circumstances ,for the same "crime" diverse punishments can be doled out. Vizard is a millionaire and will be fined $600K , that is chump change to someone with his financial acumen and resources. Rene Rifkin, albeit was under house arrest and got out of jail "free" for some malady or other..But he went to jail and his insider trading involved less money than Stevie baby. Rene, too, was a public figure as is Steve. So why the difference?
ASIC says its too hard to prove insider trading and to prosecute via the criminal system, is it not the job of the Dept of Public Prosecutions the prove that?? They, together with NCA, AFP and any one else who cared to join the fun, had no trouble tormenting John Elliot for getting out of bed in the mornings a few years ago. What's so special about Steve Vizard?

The "establishment" have dropped him like a hot potato...Why? Was he ever really one of the elite or just a wanna be with charisma, a toothy smile and a quick wit...Bit of a court jester. He says he's sorry, deeply sorry and will spend the rest of his life making restitution, this after he flounced back into Melb after nice relaxing overseas jaunt. Really hard to feel sorry for this guy. Why was he not made to surrender his passport???

Insider trading is theft by deception, plain and simple, it involves the breaking of a trust..no wonder he no longer practices law..He'd never be able to uphold client/lawyer privilege. Stocks allocated to him as a stripend for sitting on boards (and what did he do there, provide light entertainment during recesses in meeting??) he sold off with the KNOWLEDGE that changes were about or the company was being sold. This is deceptive and devious.

Steve Vizard should have stuck to what he was good at..But was he ever any good at anything? He's been a lawyer, Uni review actor(who hasn't) TV comedy act, TV host, sat on boards and got his photo in the social pages with the likes of Ron Walker(don't start me on him) I say he pays the full fare, same as Rene, he has the money and can either represent himself ,or, I did recognise a very expensive QC by his side at his court hearing courts are there for a reason, just because he lost money on the deals, only means he's a bad judge of the market; it does not change what he did.